Force the happy feeling
Today had the potential to be pretty upsetting one plus the pill is messing with my cycle but I made a conscious decision to have a good day no matter how i felt, I literally had to do a count down in my head to get out of bed 10 errrrr i don’t wanna move 9, 8, come on,7,5,4,are you going to be a miserable mummy or a happy one3, 2, 1 im up.
I somehow got through the day without crying, having a meltdown, overreacting or starting a pity party club in my mind or over the phone. The thoughts did come ‘What am I going to do?’ Then i quickly replaced it with ‘Nothing in my life goes wrong’ , ‘but what will people think?’, ‘I live my life the best I can with what I know’ 'im so stupid', 'there is a higher power in control, dont waste time worrying' and little by little that heavy feeling on my chest began to feel lighter as the hours went by. I prepared a lovely meal to share with my son and took time to be grateful that I have been blessed to experience being a mother, single or not I have this amazing, handsome 8 year old boy who couldn’t even talk, started of so small and innocent; all he needed was love and booby milk :-) and now he’s so independent, smart, kind and still so innocent.
There’s a lot I could learn from him; if he’s upset something as little as being tickled can make it all ok and he’s over it; ready to play on his tablet and talk about trains. He is able let go so easily and doesn’t mention it again, once a problem has been resolved he is happy.
Its true when you focus on the good Good shows its self but you need to look and be fully aware not stuck on your phone scrolling or gossiping about others.
Take a good look around you and I know you can easily count 10 things that you are happy you have in your life.
Everything has a way of sorting itself out so like me take a Extra deep breath look at the ones closest to you and smile even if its forced; I know somewhere out there is a mother who wishes they could hold their child but for whatever reason may never get the chance again. Let’s not wait till we lose what is most precious to us for us to appreciate the simple things we have already even on those potential bad days.
KEEP PUSHING & FORCE THE HAPPY